Thursday 30 November 2017

Am I Capable?

Well, I dont feel like scream and shouting at anyone or to myself. So here I am again. Pouring out all my heart aches. 

Well in my story there is my wrong part where I was not well verse on the new implementations. 

But "you" shouldnt just call me in and freaking telling me that I am totally stupid or slow or dumb. 

The only thing is I did not prepare well enough thats all. But all your words just told me that I am here only for the money not the experience. Well most of it IS about the money. However I still need the experience for my future role/jobs. 

I do not have the brains that can remember some training from two months back. And will not be enough for me to just read. I need real assignments to implement then I know how it works. Nothing is base on the book. Everything is case to case basis. 

Well I think some people are heartless with the people they think we dont deserve here while being cheerful and considerate to them who lick ass bastard and the ones that you groom. You wouldnt want to find any mistakes from the person you groom because it will reflect on you. This shows how selfish you are as some in that position. 

Thanks so much that i start feeling job insecurity now 

Two more months I should consider to move.