Irritated

OK.. today I was happy to see you..

But..do you know you irritate my whole day today?
I guess its because I was actually waiting for your call yesterday but unfortunately none came that's why I became irritated with you..
If only you know how I feel..
I know you have your own commitment..
So do I.. *ok..I haven't done anything right yet as of now..I only pray for his healthiness*
hmmm..

It is hard to get something which is not yours. Even a 5% out of it.
Guess I need to stay away for awhile.
Act like I don't care of anything
And pray hard that I will forget the feelings towards you.

I am determined that I will not follow what you say..asked me to do..
*even its hard to do because I love you that's why I listen and do what you say*
I will try to improve on my determination just for my own sake I guess.
I can't really rely on these feelings anymore..Its breaking me into pieces..
YES its into pieces..
I will lock the love at the end of my heart..and I hope I can throw away the keys..and written there
NO ENTRY...same as others with other names on it.
but this love..guess no entry might be suitable..hahaha..

ok.. I LOVE HATE YOU

whatever..

nite peeps..
stay beautiful..

I miss you

Okay..this is the continuing blog from the previous topic..

I miss you so much.....

I can only say it out loud here..

I can tell no one that I fell in love with you..that I miss you..loving you makes me feels like I don't have any friends to talk to..Maybe I am scared of people's judgement..

Hey YOU,
I think its time for me to throw away the feelings even its hard I will try my best.
Loving you hurts me and I don't like it.
Now its real hard to forget the feeling but I know I will. Please say something mean to me..to help me..
Don't be the person of my taste when in front of me. I really need you to not be the person I want  (even I know that is your nature character)
Its been a month where I snap out and notice I actually fell in love with you.
And its also 1 month I tried to get rid of the feeling..
Nothing helps..I tried going out all the time..not being alone..but anyway human needs rest. And while resting you keep popping on my mind..And my heart will start aching..
I feel like an idiot when I cry over you. But..thats what happened. I can't control it.
Even I am boyish..I survived my life..I am still a girl, women, a lady. My heart is still not tough enough to go through this. Its a great feeling but annoying..because like I said.. I CANT have you.

I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE

ok..motivational words for myself even I know I am just bluffing myself out.


Sincerely,
Me

When I'm in Love with a wrong person

Morning Bloggers..

I wonder what he is doing right now...

I know if anyone reads my current post you will be like "can't u just let him know? why write on a blog?"

yea yea yea...I already told him, but he can't respond to it. NO WAY he can. He can only listen. And continue to treat me as normal. I really want to know his heart. What he thinks of me. Does he even like me even we can't be together...maybe for the rest of our life..And I know he can't start any this type of conversation.

We still meet each other too often since we are friends.

And that hurts and makes me happy every time. 

Why hurt? because he can't be mine..Yes we talked, laughed, smile with each other but deeeeeeeeepppp down in my heart wants him badly to be a part of me...

Why happy? because he is by my side even though with others around..I think I love him too much where I can just see his face and be happy as long as he is..

Loving someone that you can't get is one of the bad thing happen.

Now that I already confess just to ease my freaking heart and I actually regretted it. I should just kept it to myself since I know that we can't be together. No use of confessing. Dumb girl. 

Guess I need a Runaway trip to cure my heart and start new. I know it will be very difficult to let go the feeling since I will be facing him almost everyday. But I hope GOD spare me some guidance and forgive what I've done bad so that he take away this feeling fast because I will crumble if it takes too long. Currently I can't be alone because it makes me misses him too much and I will start writing here again.

I hope 1 day I will find someone that I can love and he can love me back. Enough of this lesson. Thanks God for the feeling granted to me and I've learned my lesson. LIFE is hard. But I am one of the survivor.

ok..enough of writing..its turning into something else...

Take care my lovely bloggers. 

Bye ;)

L.O.V.E

Ohayoo Bloggers,

How is everyone?

I think I really left blog for such a longggggggggggggg time..

I think everytime I blog is when I'm thinking of something..

hmmm...

This time round its quite a serious issue..

I know some of you experienced loving someone that you shouldn't have..

That is what I am experiencing currently..

Thank you Lord since you still give me chance to love

but...why?

I've been given the feeling to love someone where I DO NOT even have the possibility to get...

How you will feel if you can't even text him saying "I Miss You" when you are thinking of him..

Me? trying to survive day by day...so that I can forget the feeling as soon as possible..

What I've learned from the past..don't try too hard on forgetting cos it will make you worst..

So..now am trying my level best to actually stop thinking of him..

That is what I want to share..I know its not a good post..but hey... its my blog ;)..

To that person.. I LOVE YOU

*i know you don't have social network and you hardly go online*

This is the only way that I can tell to the world that I love him while in reality...its all drama...

Stage of Life...

Love is not to be owned

Today's topic will be love is not to be owned. I don't know how many of you will agree with this. But for me love is to cherish but not to be owned. You may love someone but he/she might not love you back. And you will not owned him/her. Sometimes you may force yourself to let him/her accept you but in the end you will only get them physically not their Love. Thanks to God that created Love for us to know how to appreciate each beings in the world (I know there are people who has no feelings).

Being Loved is the most valuable feeling that we can get. Cherish it and Loved them back neither is your family, lover, or even animals. I am very fortunate to be loved by so many people my family, friends, lovers, animal....I don't know..But I love cats. Meeoww

Guess I've been typing nonsense here.

Appreciate LOVE

Love,
Yuuki

Graduation

Happy Graduation Day!!...but its on 15/9/2012..

Finally I manage to finish my course and now i'm a degree holder of BA (H) in Business Management.
Made my family proud. They were very happy to able to see me on the stage receiving the scroll.
Now I'm working. But I want to further my studies to Masters. Maybe after 2 years. Hope it goes with my plan. Anyway, I'll quit the talking and show the  pictures.

Thanks for the bear and flower

Me with the scroll

Me with the ISP booklet

Not that i don't want to post my family's photo..just that..its a kind of privacy where i keep it for them..

My dress for the function

Enjoying my working life for now.. hope to be a graduate again in some time soon..

My Work at MTTC

Yuuhuuu...

How are you people?

I'm Working now.. owh..by the way..i haven even posted my graduation photos..hahaha..

But yea..I'm working already. In Matrix Trinity Technology & Creativity Institute (MTTC)

A training company..for Architecture and Engineering Design bla bla bla..

Hahaha.. my position? just a normal Corporate Relation Executive a.k.a Course Coordinator.

Its OK I guess..around..everyone.. ah..working..there will be ups and downs..but I don't know how long i'll be working here..since...its kinda... erm....no need to mention I guess ..

Thats about me for now. Need to get back to work.. Take Care guys...

Love,

Yuuki