Well hello there..
Its been long since i write anything here. I guess everytime when i felt my heart is aching to endure any more pain i will talk here. At least nk one knows or judge. Just a lil diary of mine. For me to speak out my mind.
This time round.. I guess I freak out with my decision. Like lifetime decisions. I actuallt made those decisions wayyy before i am writing it now.
First mistake was I childishly jumped into a relationship right after one. And again I was so easily trusting for that guy.. yeaa you will start sayong love is blind. Well i guess not.
He indeed is a good person. Despite on some attitude issues where i dont get along. When time passes by I told him to improve himself and I gave him one year for him to progress so that we can bring it to the next level. But well now is December and this are getting out of comtrol.
Second mistake was I took pity on him and invested alot on him. Dont worry he is not going to run away. But now its December and what should I do. I told him if he did not show any improvements we might want to stop seeing each other. But since I have invested and i dont know what to do.
If i let him go will he pay? I know he is a good person but well I dont trust humans with money even myself. Greed will mostly compromise our head to think rationaly.
So now I am stuck here alone. Dont really know what to do, what to say, what to i expect to happen in future.
I crawled out from suffer and I am not jumping it in again. So trust really is my weakness. I can easily trust a person. I really hope that my heartache will go off soon.
Love,
Me
