Well, hello there.. its been long..
**cleaning all the dust away**
This entree i would like to write about my feelings..
Actually am a big fan of manga and love comics.
There is one comic makes me think.
Its been long I did not feel Love and Being Loved by a man.
Well i remember the last time i love too much is the forbidden love and i stepped away cos i know its wrong dating a married man.
And the last time a man loved me for who i am.. he is looooonnngggg gone (married) cos in the end.. man are still man. They choose who they think are wife material.
I know i wont be a very good lover as i am still a rebel/i actually have my own opinions (thanks to growing up alone)
But I dont really have been in a short term relationship. Cos shortest was 2 years together.
And now I have the mentality of “I am a proud mum to a 10 years old Son. Why would I need a man in life”
But after the manga..
I feel like i needed someone who really appreciates me, support me, “manja” me, love my son as his own etc etc. (Well his dad got married 2 years back.. guess i deserve a good life too)
I think i need to really find love.
I am 30 now with a 10 years old son.
Will I find the right guy?
I know God has plans for me. The thing is. Did I try hard enough to find his “plans” or I am actually sitting doing nothing now.
Its not about getting married.
Its all about someone that can be my soulmate, my lover, my companion, my advisor.
Everytime when I know someone that loves me so much. But i always thinks is he good enough for my son. (Reeaaaalllyyy makes me wanna just be a single mum for the rest of my life.. cos its tiring)
Guess I should start searching, open up my circle of friends. Well the older we get the less friend we have. Change in perspective. Change in life. Everything in life is about experience and changes right? So lets see how it goes from now on.
From chubby but sweet,
Yuuki
