i've tried

I've tried hard to live this life for myself, my family and my friends..i live the fullest..and i hope that i can tell myself i can live without u..
After so long..yet i still need your presents..everytime either am home or outside hanging out..hanging out with friends..travels..i will be thinking "if only" u were around..
I dont really know whether will i have the chance.. i know you are now facing a hard time.. and i think among us who are involved including yourself wont be feeling what i feel now.. I know love is always blind.. I came to fell in love with you at the wrong time. This makes me sick.. I wanna have you just all to me.. but I know i cant have it unless something miracle happens.. I tried my best to continue my life..not to live with your sayings your words.. but it became a rutin or I can say the power of love kept those words you told me in my heart rather than my mind and due to that i cant move on.
Sometimes i feel like you dont treat me fairly but i know you cant.. you are virtually not mine at all.. most of the time i feel like i am dreaming.. loving living and crying in the dream with you in it.. Loving someone that you know that you cant be having them 100% for the rest of your life hurts. Everyone wants a complete family. And if i dont stop loving you or you dont wanna let me go.. I am afraid that i will end up being that someone who waited for the guy where she obviously knows he wont make the move... Might be he is just playing around with me.. but am happy and i dont know why.. well thats what they said..

Love is blind..